I miss my brother... every single day

Hi, I have gone through quite a few deaths in my family growing up... mother, father, sis, uncles ect... but one stands out the most, my brother.... I truly believe that we were soul mates, we completed each other... I feel an empty hole in my heart.. I've tried channeling him and can not seem to do it.. any pointers? I feel like I'm in a rut and cant really move forward, until I know that he is okay.