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Best friend Adrian

posted Apr 13, 2011 17:34:25 by TonyB
My best friend, Adrian Henry Deronja took his life in January 18, 2010 in the area if Poughkeepsie, NY. He was 37 years old. The two of us had a falling out several years before and I tried to reconcile many times leading up to his death. Adrian was a great person with a heart of gold, at the same time was a tortured soul in life.
If there is any way Erik can contact Adrian, and either put us in touch or simply let him know how sorry I am and how I wish I could have done more to reconcile.
Adrian was the closest I had to a brother, I will miss him dearly for the rest of my life.
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iola said Apr 13, 2011 21:30:58
Tony,
I am so sorry about your friend, Adrian. This is the worst kind of grief. You can tell him now how you feel..he does hear you. I talk to my son Andy all the time. He answers in different ways, yet I know he is listening. Sending you a hug, and hope you reach him..I know how much it means. xox
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dreamcatcher4443 said Apr 17, 2011 23:31:00
Hi Tony! I made it :) Thanks for the website info.

Tony and I have reconneted after Adrian's death. Adrian was my cousin & closest thing I had to a little brother. I can remember Tony & Adrian's friendship when they were teenagers!
I too have struggled with Adrian's suicide. I remember our last conversation. It replays over in my mind again and again. He was so distraught. We talked for about maybe an hour. I have a young son & it had already been way past his bedtime. I told Adrian to give me a few minutes to get him to bed & I would call him back so we could finish up our talk. He begged me not to. He said he needed to talk. He never mentioned suicide that night, but in retrospect I now understand WHY he was upset. He knew what he was going to do. He knew the longer we talked, the more of a chance he wouldn't go thru with his plans; well, at least for that night. I told him he was putting me in a bad spot, and I needed to take care of my boy. I PROMISED to call back, to please give me like 15 miutes. We hung up, I called back & there was no answer.
I ask myself: What if I stayed on the phone? Would I have any indication as to what he was going to do? Could I have prolonged it long enough to get him help? I don't blame myself for Adrian's actions & I understand he made his choice. I also know at the time of his death, he had TOXIC levels of prescription medications in his system, along with alochol. It wasn't the prescription meds that killed him; he euthenized himself. He was on a mission to die that night. Adrian was a Master of Consealment. I had no idea he was drunk. Maybe if we talked longer, I would have noticed. Maybe, if I listened longer, he would have just passed out from the liquor. Maybe?...What if?... These questions loom in my head. I have this guilt & it makes me sick to my stomach. I am definately a different person since his death & my heart is permenantly broken.
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elisa said Apr 18, 2011 22:57:11
I'm asking Erik to help. Let me know if you don't get word from Adrian soon, either through a lucid dream or a physical visit
xoxox

Elisa
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AllieEd said Jun 24, 2016 12:13:52
I am so sorry to read this. I had met Adrian many many years ago and knew immediately he was struggling with depression, as was I at the time. In the few times I saw him, he poured his heart out. Then, almost as fast as he came into my life, he was gone. Stopped returning calls,etc. For some reason, today I woke up thinking of him. This is heartbreaking.
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